I was looking at pictures the other day. When you were so tiny and new. When you were so fresh from heaven and I didn't know how in the world I ever lived without you, I still don't. I think I forget how little you are sometimes. Too often I expect you to be "big". I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry that I don't realize that you're still learning or that you are such a little boy still. You just seem so much older than you are! I hear it all the time. People are always amazed when I tell them how old you are. I love that. I love watching you think. I love watching you work through problems or discovering new ways of doing things. I love the way your eyes light up when you come to a realization. You amaze me every single day. You are amazing Finn.
I dream sometimes, of the amazing man you'll become one day. I want you to know that you can do anything in this world you want to do. Anything. And you will. You changed my life in an instant, I can't wait to see the many others you'll change!
As much as I wish time would slow down, I am also excited. Exactatic really. You're 4 years old today. That means that you've been mine for 4 years. I've been blessed to see you're sweet face, to know your voice, to be you're blessed mama for four years. Do you have any idea how insanely lucky I am? To be your mom is the best feeling in the world!
There is so much I want to say to you, but mostly I want to thank you my sweet baby. Thank you for everything that you are. Thank you for the laughter and love that fills our home. Thank you for the early mornings and the late nights. Thank you for your squeeze hugs and the many "I love you"s that I'm blessed to hear. Thank you for loving so deeply. Thank you for constantly showing me what this life is truly about. Thank you for the immesurable, terrifying, hilarious, powerful, precious blessing of being YOUR mama. Thank you for being mine.
Happy Birthday Sweet Boy.
I love you, Always.
Love Mama
